I don't know what I'm doing

One of the things I am looking forward to about quitting my job is not being such a complainer. I don't think I am a complainer by nature. I think I am pretty positive and upbeat.

But then I moved here and I was struggling with the transition and I wanted to make more friends, but I realized that all I ever talked about was how miserable I was. Doesn't that make you want to be friends with me?!

So it was sort of a catch-22: I really was having a hard time and what I needed most was to talk about it because it helped me process things. But it was sort of off-putting. Ya know?

Luckily, a lot of that is over with. Believe me, I am way more glad than you are. Haha!

The last big thing was my job. Because, you know, that's what people talk about. When you're trying to make conversation with someone you don't know very well, you ask about their job. And I have had lots of conversations that went something like this:

You: So how's work going?
Me: I don't really like it.
You: What don't you like about it?
Me: It's just not me.
You: What kind of job do you think you want?
Me: That's part of the problem. I don't know. If I knew, I'd go do that instead.
You: What industry do you want to work in?
Me: I don't care what industry.
You: What company do you want to work for?
Me: I don't care about that either. It just depends on what I do there.
You: So what do you want to do?
Me: I don't know.

And you know what? I still don't have a lot of those answers. But it's time to start complaining about it and just start doing something.

And it feels pretty good.

Now conversations go like this:
You: So did you really quit?
Me: Yup! Yay!
You: What are you going to do now?
Me: I don't know! Isn't that great?! Haha!
You: What kind of job are you looking for?
Me: I'm not. I'm not going to work for a little while.
You: That sounds awesome.

Yeah. It does.