WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN, YOUNG LADY?!

You know, around. (eye roll) Whatever.

Oh, wait, I forgot. I’m not 17 anymore.

Boy, howdy, am I not 17 anymore. (sigh)

So even though there hasn’t been much activity here, there’s been lots going on, though mostly in my head. Work has been SUPER stressful for me, and one day last week, I couldn’t leave work because I couldn’t stop crying long enough to leave my office and walk down to the car.

This weekend, I started using a night guard for my teeth, because the clenching was getting really bad, and Monday I had to leave work early because my head had been hurting for almost 24 hours. So I went home (and felt better immediately!) and spent some time talking to Jeff.

And we decided that it’s time. It’s time for me to leave my job, to tell my boss the truth, that this isn’t working out, and I’ll never be the CFO he wants me to be, I’m not CFO material, and that’s okay with me. We spent some time talking about what that would mean for us, since Jeff doesn’t have a job right now either, and how we felt about it. And then we went to therapy and talked about it some more.

We all agreed – it’s time.

So yesterday, I told my boss that I wanted to leave at the end of the year. It was a pretty good talk. I told him that I am too much of a people person to spend my life in a task-oriented job. It felt good to clear the air and be open in ways that I hadn’t been before. And seeing as how he had completely changed careers in his early thirties, he was very understanding. He put it very well: “You can’t blame a hippopotamus for not being a giraffe.” And it feels really good to no longer feel this constant fear of people finding out I’m not a giraffe. I’m not even close. I’m a freaking hippo!

In the end, we ended up pushing my last day back to the end of February, which will actually be good for Jeff and me. We’ll have income and benefits for a few more months, giving us even more time to find jobs. So I think that’ll work.

It’s funny: I’ve never given 4 months notice before. It sure does feel great.

LEAP OF FAITH, HERE I COME! YAHOO!